one second

at one second, sometimes...
feel like you don't have friend
no one cares about you
everything you ever had is gone now
not appreciated
alone and alien

at one second, sometimes...
you wish no one know you
go far away from here
no can find you
live in your own world
take care of yourself
never believe others

at one second, sometimes...
what is mean of love?
is it necessary to be in love?
what worse can happen without love?
can love make you happy?
or love only will perish your heart to dust?

At one second, sometimes you just don't know who you should go and tell everything that bothering your mind, you have friends...lot of them..very closed and dear to you but still you don't think that you can tell them coz you thought they never understand. You scared to be disappointed while you really need them to understand you. Family always be there for you, but sometimes, hiding something from them doesn't mean you lied or you don't trust them, only just, you don't want them to worried about you, you want to ease up the burden and the troubles they already had. They'll be fine and will totally understand. You put your hope on the person who you thought could make it come true..together... but it's actually not, now the hope is gone for forever. And last, you are Alone and Alien..

At one second, sometimes you just wanna run far away from here and never come back. Just you and you alone..travel the world, do everything that pleases you and be happy just the way you wanted to be. Trust no one except yourself coz no one can know better than yourself. Sounds like lonely freak person which live in their own world but at least you will gain lots of experience. You dream that if you never do all the mistakes so maybe it would be different for now.

And at one second, sometimes all this thing pops up in your head like lots of popcorn come out from microwave waiting to be eaten and swallowed.. you felt terribly horrible and extremely messed, you feel so hopeless and being so much worried about your life. No idea about future.

At one second, sometimes you keep asking yourself... Why you fell in love?

But that just at one second... after that, all you gonna face of is...... REAL LIFE~