Insensitive Man...

Hello guys, as promised, why suddenly I want to write again in this blog? hmm.. it's a sad reason actually.. this few month, me and my boyfie, we seems not working out. We fight, we hate, we good, we love, we fight  back, we hate, we good, we love....over and over again, we end up hurting each other...


I try to understand him in every situation, I've try very best I could... I'm so tired of being hurt and cry. When he makes me hurt, I'm not sure if he did it on purpose or he doesn't realize he hurt my feelings, sometimes, I just endure it by myself coz I'm tired of arguing with him. It's normal, we humans, we do mistake, but if you keep doing the mistake, it's not normal anymore..


So much about him that I don't understand anymore... I don't know who is he.. He changed a lot. When I told him that, he said that he never changed, he said that it's just in my mind. Why I'm saying he's changed? well..obviously....rarely text me, if he want to talk with me, he will give me a missed call and I need to call him back.. no more sweets and fancy words..or greetings..or talks..nothing. He still take care of me, means always help me with weekly routine and my loyal driver,hehe. But that's not all isn't it..?? what can I say here is....he is INSENSITIVE MAN. He think too simple & makes everything looks easy, it's so annoying me!!

He totally a changed man, I don't even know who is he anymore. I like 'he' the older one...then I love 'he' the older one...and now...who is he?? Give him back to me!! Waaa...Nothing I can do, hopeless. Even this blog never be his favorite anymore.. my boyfie get to know me through this precious blog. He use to love reading this blog. He loves watching pictures that I share in here..sometimes, he ask me or remind me.. 'When you gonna update your blog dear? I'm waiting.." and whenever we on the phone, he will ask if there anything he wanna knows more about what I blogged. Our conversation is the best I ever remember. I love his voice and he always make me smile with his jokes.. BUT....there's no more.. no more conversation.. no more long phone call and texting. Everything fade away. I wonder if the love is still there......

p/s: You can never teach a guy to love you the way you wanted to be loved. You have to wait for him to do it in his own way, in his own time, that's the saddest part being a girl. But you can never teach a girl to love the guy back the way she did before if she already grew tired and fed up understanding and waiting to be appreciated and loved the wat she deserves to be loved, that's the saddest part of being an insensitive man :(