decreasing....

Day by day, I felt like he doesn't deserve my love...but I love him. I don't know what to do. Sharing with you guys how glad am I to see his charming smile, spend time with him, not gonna happen tonight. I'm in the middle whether I should understand him that he had work to do tonight, maybe late..but I'm willing to wait..and he hurt my feeling when I receive a text from him just asking if I want him to buy me a dinner... why can't he just take me out for dinner? hmmm.. maybe to you it's just a small matter but to me, it's something that telling me he tired taking care of  me and everything and afraid to tell me coz he feels like I'm in his responsible now after Abah passed away, plus plus, he told me before that my mother also ask him to take care of me here. So, did he really take care of me because he really cared for me or just being responsible??

p/s: he maybe a good and kind in person, and high level of patient, but he did not know me. He don't know what is in my heart.. what I want from him.. why I being like this... I feel like I'm a TROUBLE to him, that's all. He won't admit that he get tired of all this. He never spill it out, our communication not good. Nyte peeps :(