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Jul 26, 2012

6 Ramadhan

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Assalamualaikum semua..

Sekejap je hari ni dah Ramadhan ke-6, Selamat Berpuasa semua (bbrpa jam je lagi nak berbuka,hehe)
nak kata busy tak la busy sangat cuma dalam proses menyiapkan apa yang patut disiapkan dalam masa terdekat ni, tawakal je...dalam erti kata lain, berserah je. Tak mengharap lebih2 sebab sentiasa sedar dan ingat apa yang telah berlalu dalam beberapa bulan yang lepas.

8 days on counting....
Lepasni tamatlah riwayat sebagai pelajar, not much to aspect but am grateful for everything, only Allah knows the feelings. Wish I could always do better next..for my life..and for everyone who loves me.
8 days to go for Malacca....
For sure I will miss everything here and person I knew and every single memory I had here, I'll never forget and I've learned so much from what I've been through this 3 years..

got to go... i will continue later :)

Jul 19, 2012

roomateku yg sweeeett

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Semalam bangun je tido, my roomate dah kluar, bangun bangun tengok ada note:



normal la tu, masing masing baru check-in memang bilik kami bersepah la, kapal karam pun karam jugak tapi yang best dapat ole ole,hikhik (^_^)











Then balik keje tadi, my roomate dah takda. Semalam dia ada bagitahu nak balik KL hari ni, smpai je rumah, ada note lagi:



wahhh, roomate saya memang sweet, thanks darls, kek lapis tu memang sedap. Tido sorang sorang la saya bila dia balik KL, apapun, Selamat Berpuasa jugak (^_^)



















Jul 18, 2012

Happy Happy Time

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Assalamualaikum Everyone (^_^)

Arrived Malacca at 5.45 a.m yesterday, Alhamdulillah.
For this week activity, I'm gonna packing all my stuff, this weekend will be at hometown again, sending back Iswara so taking this opportunity to wrap up all my stuff since my first year at UTeM (^_^)















Lastnight, received some 'ole ole' from my beloved roomate, she just came back from Sarawak.
a beautiful BRACELET and a KEYCHAIN, thanks for the thought of me (^_^)

 


HAPPY HAPPY DAY (^_^)
























CHECK OUT NEW SONG~!!! (^_^)

Jul 16, 2012

birthdayPresent-to-be

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next Justin Bieber song in album #BELIEVE - Die in Your Arms, check out the lyric here.

Tonight I will going back to Melaka, lots of packing to do (^_^)


Congratulations to Terengganu, the champion of SUKMA 2012 (^_^)

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Lately, I always thinking about to add my books collection and I have 3 books in mind. Those are:


1) "Sebelum Aku Bernikah" by Hilal Asyraf
2) "Diari Heliza Helmi" by Heliza Helmi
3) "Smile" by Irma Hasmie

 
Aside from having present like CHOCOLATE, FRESH FLOWERS, WATCH, ACCESSORIES, PURSE, PERFUME, GADGET, CANDLE LIGHT DINNER, SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY or VACATION... NOVEL or BOOK can be a precious gift though (^_^)

Maybe I can make request for my Birthday present (^_^) soon.... 
quite a time I didn't get birthday persent (^_^) looking into it :D


Jul 14, 2012

next song

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Alhamdulillah, 5.45 pagi tadi saya selamat sampai kampung, tak dapat digambarkan perasaan gembira di hati ini. Lepas subuh tadi saya terus collapse tidur sampai ke tengahari. Sepanjang perjalanan semalam saya tak dapat nak tidur sebab seat sebelah lelaki. Memang tak tenteram sepanjang perjalanan, dah jadi habit memang tak suka kalau dalam keadaan macam tu. Selalunya saya beli tiket single seat tapi apa nak buat, single seat sold out plak terpaksa la jugak beli double seat. Kena pulak nasib tak berapa nak baik, lelaki plak yang duk sebelah, aduyaiiii. 8 jam perjalanan tahan mata layan lagu lagu dalam playlist, hilang sket gelisah di hati, hehehe.

Lalu kat Bandar Kuantan dalam suasana malam, terkesima sekejap sebab tak sama macam selalu. Maklumlah sekarang kan sedang berlangsung SUKMA di Kuantan. Bandar Kuantan terus bertukar jadi waarna warni dengan lampu lampu dan stadium yang tersergam indah. By the way, congratulation Terengganu, last I checked Terengganu was leading. Macam mana la tak 'up-to-date' SUKMA ni, mak dan adik bongsu saya, Anieq penuh dengan semangat kesukanan dan anak jati Terengganu. Seronok mereka bersorak tengok acara lari berganti ganti kat Astro Arena LIVE sampaikan saya terjaga di tengahari, hekhek. Untuk acara tu, perempuan dan lelaki, dua dua pingat Emas milik Terengganu, hooyeahh.

Disebabkan 2.45 pagi di perhentian Cherating, saya dah makan McD's Triple Cheeseburger, tapau kat Melaka Sentral, specially made for me without pickles and extra sos cili...so bangun bangun je tak lapar sangat, makan honeydew je so dinner tadi baru makan nasi, mak masak Kari Daging. Sedaaaappp sehingga menjilat jari plus plus makan dengan sambal belacan mak yang menyengat, lagi la berselesa saya makan. Lupa terus kat diet. Apa pun tak boleyy...

Petang tadi pergi rumah tok, jumpa tok, tokki, cikda dan uchu and baby Farihin. Buat masa ni, uchu stay di rumah tok sebab membilang hari untuk melahirkan baby sulung nya, insyaAllah. Hope everything gonna be okay. Dah lama tak balik kampung, now, baby Farihin dah boleh merangkak.. dah ada gigi tumbuh dua biji, comel je. Lagi rancak dia mengusik sekarang, hilang semua sakit kepala melayan kerenah baby Farihin ni. Sebelum ni saya belum berkesempatan lagi nak perkenalkan kat you guys baby Farihin, here is my cute little cousin (^_^)

video

as I planned before, here is my next favorite song in Justin Bieber album #BELIEVE, "Be Alright".. feel free to click on play button. JB wrote this song for all her fans, He loves his fans. Love you Justin (^_^)


Jul 13, 2012

I'm coming home

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Assalamualaikum, Morning Everyone!! Rindunya kamu kamu semua, Sorry lambat update (^_^)

Alhamdulillah, mood hari ni sangat Happy and Excited. Kenapa?? sebab malam ni saya nak balik kampung~!!! No words can express this feelings!! Hope kamu kamu semua happy untuk saya juga, saya tahu ada insan yang sentiasa happy bila saya happy..kan kan kan?? Nak tengok wajah wajah Happy and Excited saya tak?? mesti nak kan.. saya dah siap siap buat collage lagi taw, hehehehe (^_^)



Yes~!! I am REALLY HAPPY, nak loncat loncat keriangan ni taw, Ya Allah, terima kasih untuk perasaan gembira ini dan nikmat bahagia yang Kau berikan padaku untuk keluarga tercinta (^_^)

Alright, done with personal update. Now, tell me, anyone here check out JB new album "BELIEVE" ??
Share with me 'what-say-you' about the album..
for me, it's AWESOME, I love all the songs and it's worth it. The song you guys hearing now at my blog is one of my favorite song and kinda giving a good mood for me, enjoy the song!!!

and I will keep changing the song from  "BELIEVE" album coz I'm in the mood of Beliebers, yeayy!!
Justin making his tour around the world, Best nya kalau ada orang sponsor tiket pergi konsert JB ni, peluang yang bukan selalu ada, teringin jugak nak dengar live budak jambu ni nyanyi, hehehe :)

Justin and his beliebers have the best bond ever..
We're more than just an idol, and he's my inspiration. He's flawless (^_^)


before I end this entry, wanna share a Highlight from McDonald's for all Chicken Foldover Lovers :)
get this coupon and redeem at your favorite McD restaurant. Click the picture for details :)


Last but not least, I just wanna say this to someone who always be there for me. I know you reading this, "we might find our place in this world someday, but at least for now I gotta go my own way, I Miss You"



Jul 11, 2012

a day off

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Assalamualaikum, Morning Everyone and Salam Subuh...

Wake up so early this morning, my eyes get itchy since yesterday then bangun tadi tengok mata saya merah sebelah kiri. Tak la merah sepenuhnya tapi macam nak kena sakit mata. So for sure hari ni saya tak kan upload gambar dengan mata yang sakit ni, silap silap boleh jangkit plak, mana la tahu kan..haha

So pagi pagi ni takda watpe sangat, ingat nak rest je kat rumah but then kena breakfast dulu sebab semalam makan sikit sangat takut gastrik plak nanti.. a little update about my "new-song-just-added-to-my-playlist" , I am BELIEVER so I want you guys to check out on new album of Justin Bieber titled "BELIEVE". I already have all the track in my playlist, is about 12 or 13 tracks in there. Included where Justin feat Drake, Nicky Mnaj and Ludacris. 

Personally, Justin himself and his music really closed to me and his music really inspiring for everyone who listen to it.. and I love his personality, I don't know how to describe and one thing, he was born to be a star and inspired others through his talent and music. He is different. More about the album, check out here.



That's all for now, going to have BELIEVER blast today, get your own now (^_^)

p/s: next post I will tell you which song is my favorite, daa..

Jul 10, 2012

untuk dia

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Assalamualaikum, Morning Everyone (^_^)

 

Pagi pagi dengar lagu cheeky & comel macam ni, happy sket mood saya hari ni. Actually memang dah lama minat SleeQ, sejak dari lagu Cantek lagi, bila bergabung dengan bakat fresh macam Najwa Latif ni memang awesome and catchy enough untuk tarik perhatian remaja remaja sekarang. Love the song, plus plus sebab ada Aaron Aziz dalam video clip, hehehe :)

Semalam lepas balik keje, sampai je rumah terus collapse.. mengantuk sangat, tidur tak ingat dunia, apa taknye, dah 3 hari straight tak tido, bila dah tido terus tak sedarkan diri..huhuu.. Jangan ikut perangai saya ni ye, tak elok amalkan tido lewat ataupun tak tido langsung..terlebih tido pun tak leh jugak. Jangan lebih 8 jam tapi kalau memang banyak keje, paling kurang pun 4 jam mesti ambil masa untuk tido. Bukan sengaja taknak tido sebenarnya tapi sebab saya bnyak fikir sangat, tambah dengan masalah lagi, sabor je lahh..hehehe

//pakai tudung yg sama dgn semalam, tak sempat nk gosok yg lain pagi td//

[appendix: sajak untuk Insan yang akan memiliki hati saya ]


Kehadiranmu Kutunggu

Sayang…
Setiap hari aku menunggu kehadiranmu…
Setiap hari aku menunggu kedatanganmu…
Setiap hari aku memanjat doa padaNya agar aku dapat bertemu denganmu…

Sayang..
Setiap hari aku sabar…
Setiap hari aku redha…
Aku pasti dirimu akan hadir jua dalam hidupku…
Aku pasti kamu jua begitu…

Sayang…
Aku inginkan dirimu…
Datang dan temui diriku…
Kan ku katakan padamu, Aku sangat mencinta…

Sayang…
Andai kamu tahu yang aku menunggu kamu disetiap mimpi-mimpiku…
Andai kamu tahu aku sentiasa memohon padaNYA agar dipertemukan dengan dirimu…
Andai kamu tahu aku mengharapkan kehadiranmu disisiku…

Tapi Sayang…
Aku sedar yang aku harus bersabar…
Aku sedar aku harus menunggu sedikit masa lagi…
Setiap malam aku menangis, sayang…
Menanti kehadiranmu…
Kerana aku rindu untuk menceritakan segalanya padamu…
Kerana aku rindu untuk meluahkan apa yang aku rasa…

Sayang…
Andai kamu tahu betapa aku mengharapkan kehadiranmu disetiap malamku…
Andai kamu tahu betapa aku mengharapkan seseorang untuk menjadi Imam disetiap solatku…

Sayang…
Aku sentiasa menunggu kamu…
Aku sentiasa bersabar dengan apa saja dugaan yang Allah SWT tetapkan untuk aku…

Sayang…
Sesungguhnya aku tahu Sabar itu separuh daripada Iman..
Dan dengan kekuatan iman aku ini, aku tetap sabar menanti kamu…
Aku tidak lupa untuk memohon pada Yang Esa agar dipertemukan dengan kamu…
DIA yang tetapkan Jodoh buat kita…
Hanya DIA yang mengetahui segalanya…
Hanya DIA yang mengetahui bila kita akan bertemu…

Sayang…
Aku sudah penat untuk mendengar bicara teman-teman diluar sana…
Aku sudah penat untuk menjawab segala persoalan mereka…
Sedikit masa lagi… Aku sedar, sayang…
Cinta itu akan jadi milik kita… Jodoh kita adalah untuk selamanya… Sepanjang akhir hayatku…
Hanya kau yang kucinta… Hanya kau yang kurindu…
Kerana DIA yang tetapkan perasaan itu untuk kamu…
kerana DIA yang mengizinkan aku untuk mencintaimu…

Sayang…
Dimana sahaja kau berada, dengarlah bisikan hatiku…
Dengarlah setiap doa-doaku…
Kerana doaku untuk cinta kita…
Mohon lah padaNYA, sayang…
Agar kita bertemu suatu hari nanti…
Jika kita tidak bertemu disini, mungkin kita akan bertemu disana…
Di alam yang kekal selamanya…


credit to Nur Imaan Qalisya~

Jul 9, 2012

one second

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at one second, sometimes...
feel like you don't have friend
no one cares about you
everything you ever had is gone now
not appreciated
alone and alien

at one second, sometimes...
you wish no one know you
go far away from here
no can find you
live in your own world
take care of yourself
never believe others

at one second, sometimes...
what is mean of love?
is it necessary to be in love?
what worse can happen without love?
can love make you happy?
or love only will perish your heart to dust?

At one second, sometimes you just don't know who you should go and tell everything that bothering your mind, you have friends...lot of them..very closed and dear to you but still you don't think that you can tell them coz you thought they never understand. You scared to be disappointed while you really need them to understand you. Family always be there for you, but sometimes, hiding something from them doesn't mean you lied or you don't trust them, only just, you don't want them to worried about you, you want to ease up the burden and the troubles they already had. They'll be fine and will totally understand. You put your hope on the person who you thought could make it come true..together... but it's actually not, now the hope is gone for forever. And last, you are Alone and Alien..

At one second, sometimes you just wanna run far away from here and never come back. Just you and you alone..travel the world, do everything that pleases you and be happy just the way you wanted to be. Trust no one except yourself coz no one can know better than yourself. Sounds like lonely freak person which live in their own world but at least you will gain lots of experience. You dream that if you never do all the mistakes so maybe it would be different for now.

And at one second, sometimes all this thing pops up in your head like lots of popcorn come out from microwave waiting to be eaten and swallowed.. you felt terribly horrible and extremely messed, you feel so hopeless and being so much worried about your life. No idea about future.

At one second, sometimes you keep asking yourself... Why you fell in love?

But that just at one second... after that, all you gonna face of is...... REAL LIFE~




 

Day 3

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Day 3 ?? Apa yang "Day 3" ??















Assalamualaikum and Morning Everyone, I wish everyone having a beautiful day ahead, as my day will not be bright as everyone else, I'M HAPPY if you guys HAPPY and feel free to share with me your happy day, insyaAllah. 

Balik pada tajuk cerita, so...apa yang "Day 3" ni...? Okay la, sebenarnya, dengan dukacita dimaklumkan, hari ini adalah hari ketiga cik A.J tak tido, OMG! Don't know what to do, having trouble with sleep really not awesome. Tengok la gambar kat atas tu, takyah pakai celak, original celak dah terlebih lebih a.k.a Mata Panda. Really not good for health. Headache... Blackout.. bukan 'blackout' elektrik takda taw, maksud saya pitam, tiba tiba mata gelap, tak nampak apa apa untuk beberapa saat. 

\\\Real_Situation\\\

my current mood is not good  like all those sweet word above
cheer morning greeting....
that was the words I wish to say to you all guys
but I am totally crush and burn right now

Try to make my life happier even it wasn't
I don't know what is going on with me
L O S T and B L A N K
the task that I should finish up 3 weeks ago seems had NO END
I lost my focus and I cannot think of anything 

Everything was messed up
I lose my hope and faith 
Things turn out to be very hard for me
Emotional...
I am L O S E R right?















I just need my mother and my family
but they far away from me
"akak rindu mak..mira...aiman..anieq"



Not Anymore

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Do you love him?


NOT ANYMORE















I cannot say this is over
coz I don't know what will happen next
but I am sure...that...
I don't want fall in love anymore
there's nothing wrong with L.O.V.E
L.O.V.E is pure
but....
it's make my heart shatter to pieces
the more I love, the more I hurt
love not for me
I'm done.. only time will tell
till then,
take care my dear heart :(



Jul 8, 2012

different

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Assalamualaikum, Hello everyone..it's been two days from my last post about friends. I Love All My Friends . Other than my family, friends are person will be there for me through this life,couldn't run from them! Don't wanna run either, they are my strength and my loyal listener :)

Soon, Ramadhan will come and as we all, insyaAllah it will brings lot of blessing from Allah and try to benefit this month as much as we can (^_^)



As for me and my family (Mak, Mira, Aiman and Anieq), this Ramadhan will not be the same anymore for us without Abah around us. Ya Allah, we miss him so much. Thinking that Abah not here anymore with us to greet Ramadhan and Aidilfitri make me sad and sorrow. Usually, Abah will take us went to bazaar together, everyday at Gong Kapas. Abah loves date (kurma), he always restock them through Ramadhan. Never miss Solat Terawih and Sahur. Abah always said that we must take blessing from Sahur, due to stay energize during fasting. My family and I had so much memory with him during Sahur, which is we had moment when all of us late for Sahur, kinda 10 minute before Imsak, we reach for anything that can be eat and drink as fast as we can, and we've been through this every Ramadhan. Between day first until last day of Ramadhan, it must be a day that we all will be late for Sahur. Whatever it is, Abah said, don't skip your Sahur, at least, have some dates (kurma) and water.

He also always be a loyal companion for us to buy preparation for Aidilfitri, he loves to see our smiles and excitement celebrating Aidilfitri. From the day I born, the day I start to walk until now, he never failed to prepared everything that me and my sibling needs. I miss my father, I miss him so much. But this year, everything will be different without his present. You always be in my heart Abah, Al-Fatihah ;(

I miss you Abah ;(

It's never been easy for me after Abah passed away, other people may see I'm smiling..facing life as usual... go there, come here, do this, do that.... it's hard. Faking smile, hiding my own feeling to others, couldn't say everything that I wish I could say it out loud. I need to be strong for my mother and my siblings.. I'm the eldest, I cannot show to them what actually I felt inside. 


Jul 5, 2012

gift of a friend

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Assalamualaikum, Hello everyone. Alhamdulillah we meet again and Good Morning for those who still stay up or for those who wake up for sahur, it's Nisfu Sya'ban today. It's going to rain here, so cold & windy. The pain got better but still need to rest, to recover my strength. Lately I'm not taking my meal on time and I lost lot of my nutrient in my body. My face got pale, my lips parched and I really need to get back my normal sleep time so I won't look pale and sick anymore.

I'm happy coz I have great great great Friends in my life, more than spongebob loves jellyfish, more than mr.krabs loves money, more than squidward loves clarinet and more than sandy loves karate. Once we be friends, forever we gonna be friends, no one can take that from me except Allah. Being a soul mate or life partner is the other step of our life that we never know. All in Allah hands. Most people believe in second chance..but how about third chance....or forth chance..mybe fifth chance... is there human being like us have a gut to accept that as we know we just weak human being which is not perfect..? Well, every individual have different views.

Try to think this way, when we were born to this world until now, you think, how many do Allah gives us chance to realize our mistake and back to Him..? how many chance Allah gives us to breath and to live in this world even when we disobey His order... did Allah immediately punish us when we done wrong? I'm sure we all know the answer....because Allah is Most Forgiving and Most Merciful for all His creature. Who are we to judge each other better than Allah. Everyone deserve second chance, third chance and so on.. because we all not perfect, everyone do mistake and everyone deserve as many chance they have, as long as we meant for being better person, insyaAllah, have the faith, Allah will always be there for you.

The question is, how you appreciate the chance had given to you? how you value the chance you get? it can turn out be a great destiny for you or the worst choice you ever make... worth it or not worth it? right or wrong? happy or misery? All in your hands and you alone.

For you my friend, thank you for being my friend all this while. You really a good partner and always a great deal to me. Since we get to know each other, you always put smile on my face, you try your best to give the love that I deserve, you being a good teacher giving me advice and always be the shoulder for my tears. Last thing I would do is hurting you and all I want is for you to be happy wherever you are and who you are. Be happy because you deserve that more than everything in this world. I always pray for your happiness and I believe, someday we will meet again. InsyaAllah.

p/s: I AM HAPPY if YOU ARE HAPPY

[appendixes,hehe]


Malam Bulan Dipagar Bintang - P Ramlee & Saloma

Malam bulan dipagar bintang
Makin indah jika dipandang
Bagai gadis beri senyuman
Pada bujang idaman

Belai kasih ingin dimanja
Dengan cumbuan mesra
Untuk pelipur lara
Penawar dik asmara

Malam bulan dipagar bintang
Tambah seri cuaca malam
Murni sungguh ciptaan Tuhan
Bulan bintang lampu alam

Andai kata bintang menyepi
Bulan tidak berseri
Malam menjadi sunyi
Tidak berseri lagi


Jul 4, 2012

My mr.Right

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Assalamualaikum, Hello everyone. Cold, Windy, Rainy, Peaceful & Restful day for me today.. heavy rain here at Malacca since morning with roar of thunder, and I'm so hungry right now,haha. Another sick day for me but better than yesterday so I'm gonna chill out a bit enjoying the moment in this beautiful weather.

Back to topic, who's your Mr. or Mrs. Right?? tell me about him/her?
Well, I don't know if I have found my Mr.Right yet but my Mr.Right must not have these character:
1 Smoker
2 Hot-tempered
3 Spoiled & Childish
4 Arrogant
5 Polluter & Stink
6 Gross spoken
7 Annoying & Rude
8 Liar & Hypocrite
Stubborn
10 Nagging
11 Playboy
12 Messy
13 Coward

As my conclusion, I want a sensitive man who not afraid to constantly express his emotion and feeling towards me, I want a guys who is be there for me and in the mean time I also crave some mystery in him. Loving me in his own way yet always cherish me with happiness & love. Hurting my feelings maybe the last thing he would do & when he does, he know what his mistake, know how to apologize & try not to do it again, learn from mistake. Sometimes, get attention from him is more than enough than I can bargain, nothing more, I wonder if a guy would understand this. But one thing that I always believe, true love is exist in this world if you know how to find it :)

I'm so grateful for this life, I've given chance to be loved (some guys) and most of them still be my friends till now, to me, that's how the love really works. I mean, even things doesn't turn out like you wanted it to be (for me to love them back), doesn't mean the relationship had to end and hate each other. If is really true love your offer me, than, no matter what, being a friend for each other is much more precious & pure. Hate each other will only shows the hatred in your heart and that's is not love.

I really in mode of love lately..not specifically towards my boyfie, but for anyone that could be my Mr.Right. So I hope anyone who's reading this post, I will be really honored if you guys can share with me your Mr.Right and how you two meet each other. Tell me how happy you are and how beautiful your love for him. I will gladly reading your story with smile & grateful for your happiness.

That would be all for now, share your link guys, Love ya!! Wassalam :)

he heart me

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He did buy me a dinner, sent them at my house, 12 a.m. He said sorry for being late and he also tell me that he really tired. So I guess I really need to understand his situation, put aside my feeling coz I think this is the  part which is I need to give him space and not pressure him too much. Maybe yes I'm a bit emotional.. I don't know maybe yes maybe not, hope time will tell. As usual, I can't sleep, get this insomniac problem lately, been thinking a lot and so much undone matters which I have to complete it without me really not into it so it's kinda like had to forced myself to do it. Hope everything gonna be OK for me, really don't have any idea what ahead me,pfffttt. Later guys, Love ya!

Jul 3, 2012

decreasing....

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Day by day, I felt like he doesn't deserve my love...but I love him. I don't know what to do. Sharing with you guys how glad am I to see his charming smile, spend time with him, not gonna happen tonight. I'm in the middle whether I should understand him that he had work to do tonight, maybe late..but I'm willing to wait..and he hurt my feeling when I receive a text from him just asking if I want him to buy me a dinner... why can't he just take me out for dinner? hmmm.. maybe to you it's just a small matter but to me, it's something that telling me he tired taking care of  me and everything and afraid to tell me coz he feels like I'm in his responsible now after Abah passed away, plus plus, he told me before that my mother also ask him to take care of me here. So, did he really take care of me because he really cared for me or just being responsible??

p/s: he maybe a good and kind in person, and high level of patient, but he did not know me. He don't know what is in my heart.. what I want from him.. why I being like this... I feel like I'm a TROUBLE to him, that's all. He won't admit that he get tired of all this. He never spill it out, our communication not good. Nyte peeps :(

sick & sad

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Assalamualaikum, Hello everyone.. how's your day today? Hoping it would not be like min3..as you can read the title of my post,huhuu.. period cram really killing me and even I've been through this for every month, I never can hold the pain, and the pain killer are totally knocked out my head, damn!! feel so weak and really get my nerve, I lost all my strength to wake up. I don't like it, hate being in this state.

Despite having this pain, still, to see his charming smile, I am sure I will be back on feet immediately :))) Just in love with him, what can I say...But...well...regarding to my post yesterday,  we not working out so well lately, I mean maybe it's more like.. "ME" not in good feeling about "US".......it's complicated to say you know, even to myself it's been really confusing. I love him, He love me BUT... in the between of that feelings not so sweet as just two person in love. Oh goshh, why is so hard to be in love and be loved.

I try to share this confusion of mine with my friends and they said that I was thinking so much ahead and worried to much, hello!! of course I must think ahead before anything bad happen right? in current life now, everything must be clear, you cannot take any risk for your future.. I want happy future... if I'm not being worried and thinking so much further now then I'm scared that I will make mistake & ruin my future..  my mother love him, she said I should get easy a little bit to him, don't be so mean & serious all the time. Give him some space & understand him. Sometimes a guy don't like to be depressed, he had so much other thing to be think and worried as he will be the one who will take care of you.. SO, well, what my mother said is true & understandable. But doesn't mean he can take advantage on that... he keep doing the same mistake over and over again, hurt me, make me cry...and for sure I don't want to stand that for the whole of my life, so I just wanna be truthfully with myself and him, I cannot accept that, I cannot accept that he cannot take care of my heart from being hurt repeatedly and why I need to accept that if I can do something from now, that's why... I won't give up to make him see sense of what I feel. Other matters can be easily solve when our heart will be cherish with love that you deserve, that's what I want for my love.........

p/s: I try to set a music for this lovely blog, but seems it doesn't work out, the song not playing as you can't hear any song come out right? haha.. I'll try to solve that later, bye guys, love you all :)

Jul 2, 2012

Insensitive Man...

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Hello guys, as promised, why suddenly I want to write again in this blog? hmm.. it's a sad reason actually.. this few month, me and my boyfie, we seems not working out. We fight, we hate, we good, we love, we fight  back, we hate, we good, we love....over and over again, we end up hurting each other...


I try to understand him in every situation, I've try very best I could... I'm so tired of being hurt and cry. When he makes me hurt, I'm not sure if he did it on purpose or he doesn't realize he hurt my feelings, sometimes, I just endure it by myself coz I'm tired of arguing with him. It's normal, we humans, we do mistake, but if you keep doing the mistake, it's not normal anymore..


So much about him that I don't understand anymore... I don't know who is he.. He changed a lot. When I told him that, he said that he never changed, he said that it's just in my mind. Why I'm saying he's changed? well..obviously....rarely text me, if he want to talk with me, he will give me a missed call and I need to call him back.. no more sweets and fancy words..or greetings..or talks..nothing. He still take care of me, means always help me with weekly routine and my loyal driver,hehe. But that's not all isn't it..?? what can I say here is....he is INSENSITIVE MAN. He think too simple & makes everything looks easy, it's so annoying me!!

He totally a changed man, I don't even know who is he anymore. I like 'he' the older one...then I love 'he' the older one...and now...who is he?? Give him back to me!! Waaa...Nothing I can do, hopeless. Even this blog never be his favorite anymore.. my boyfie get to know me through this precious blog. He use to love reading this blog. He loves watching pictures that I share in here..sometimes, he ask me or remind me.. 'When you gonna update your blog dear? I'm waiting.." and whenever we on the phone, he will ask if there anything he wanna knows more about what I blogged. Our conversation is the best I ever remember. I love his voice and he always make me smile with his jokes.. BUT....there's no more.. no more conversation.. no more long phone call and texting. Everything fade away. I wonder if the love is still there......

p/s: You can never teach a guy to love you the way you wanted to be loved. You have to wait for him to do it in his own way, in his own time, that's the saddest part being a girl. But you can never teach a girl to love the guy back the way she did before if she already grew tired and fed up understanding and waiting to be appreciated and loved the wat she deserves to be loved, that's the saddest part of being an insensitive man :(

Hello everyone...

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Assalamualaikum, it's been a long time I'm not updating this blog.. I miss spending my time sharing my story and uploading photo in here. Actually, lately, I keep flashback a lot about this blog, and that's why this morning I plan to write again & giving this blog new look, hope you guys like it. Simple & Sweet :)

Currently I undergoing my internship and will be end soon on 3rd August 2012, such a relieve & awesome. After 6 years being as a student, leaving hometown, far from my beloved family, now..it comes to an end, Alhamdulillah... feel grateful for this chance & experience. What's next?? Who knows... even for myself, honestly, no idea what will gonna happen next. I just wanna be close to  my family.. After Abah passed away few months ago, I couldn't bear myself thinking that I was far away from them, my mother never once forget Abah, even now, she's not sleeping in the room like they use to be, my mother said that she felt that Abah is still there near & close to her... can't believe Abah left us.. I really miss him, always miss him, how lovely he was and a caring father..  and guys...love your parents, appreciate them.. spend time with them while you can, trust me, losing a father.. really hurt, only Allah knows.

p/s: check out for my next post... why suddenly i want to write back..

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