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Aug 20, 2010

if leaving you.......

Assalamualaikum....wassup all???
agak terlmbat nk wish tp nk wish jgk,, SELAMAT MENJALANI IBADAH PUASA.. SALAM RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK.. Semoga Ramadhan kali ini memberi kita berlipat ganda rahmatNya...
esok dh masuk Ramadhan yg ke-11, so far how do u do guys?? hehehe
pd kaum2 adam, hope korang xda buat perangai ponteng2 ni ok?? be a good boy and Terawih cuba sempurnakan jika mampu..ambil kesempatan yg dtg ni dgn hati yg terbuka..insyaAllah pahala yg di janjikan berlipat kali ganda... and pada kaum2 hawa plak, if boleh puasa jgn buat2 uzur k,.keep our puasa well for this Ramadhan, insyaAllah...sama2 kita usahakn ea...

agak lama la sy x update blog ku yg tersayang ni kan?? actually xdala busy sgt, mksdunya if nk update this blog tiap2 hari boleh sgt sebenarnya tp disebabkn my life xda yg special sgt utk di share, so rasa cm mls nk update,,yela..blog org lain sume shared2 something yg best2, happening & happy jer..tp hidup sy ni x hepi sgt....bnyak mslh dr kegembiraan,huhuhu,,ter'touching2' plak tetiba..hahaha

my life was so boring actually,,try to make my life colorful with my own canvas but everytime the canvas wanna get dry, its raining,,and even myself couldn't save my own canvas..so, there's no colorful anymore...i was walking through time looking for an answer that i never get before. All this thing push me to take the wrong choice, how can it be this way?? only Allah knows..
I just can't help but keep wondering..why? why? how? can i? should i?....
keep wondering how everything could change
with or without my awareness..
some people search what seems to be in their life, same with me here now..
to find my true love and here i am....
with everything i wished for,,SPOILED by myself!!!

on my previous post, i've said tht i am trying to appreciate someone in my life now,,
i am taking a step to accept someone new in my life, someone who loves me with all his heart, someone who appreciate my presence in his life, someone who totally take care of my needed perfectly, someone who never neglect me and always be there whenever i need him, someone who really make me feel this life was beautiful, we smile together, we cry together and by asking me to let him inside of my world and life, and my answer to him is YES....
tht moment i said YES to him, he's the happiest guy in this entire world..
i've brighten up his life
i've completed his life
I AM HIS GIRL !!!!

but the reality was not as beautiful as i thought
i am thinking to much about him, without i realizes actually i'm not ready for all this..
i'm not sure with my own feelings
Ya Allah,,,i break his heart..forgive me!!!

If leaving you is the right thing to do, then I'll hurt myself to keep from hurting you, to keep you happy. When I realizes just how much you needs me in your life, I became afraid.
Here's the thing...I've already gone crazy once, I know what my limits are..and I can't stand any pain anymore, now I'm in pain again so I guess there's no more left for me here....


I wanna start this over again..but it's too late now...
Happiness not for me,,that's for sure.
REALLY SICK OF THIS LIFE!!

before I end this, i wanna say something to someone I hurt his heart..

Dear,
I've made my mistake
and now I don't know what to do except asking for your forgiveness
but I know, nothing with 'sorry'
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
and I can't explain what happened
and I can't erase the thing that I've done to you
I know I can't.
..

FORGIVE ME.........

1 comment:

  1. everyone deserve to be happy including you k....don't let it down,

    ReplyDelete

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