n.e.w

such a torny path i've been through since he's not in my life anymore,,,
make myself stronger & stronger
struggling,,,arguing,,,i'm so tired
but life must go on...enough for me when i'm not forgeting Him and i know He always by my side as He promise..O Allah,plz give me strength for everything i have decided..
no one knew even i make a wrong choice or wrong decision,but still..
i just can't be in silence mode forever,,action must be taken..
now or never
so i did it,,,and now i feel it,,,
hoping everything gonna be fine..insyaAllah,,
i always hold on to my trust, i will always SMILE even mu heart hurts and even i couldn't brighten up my own life, i will brighten up other's life...
it makes me feel so relieve when someone relieve & happy..
as in this life, we have to give and take
but i rather choose to give but not to take..
sometimes i feels like when i come to someone's life, i will change their life become more complicated with my absence...do i need to be alone??hmmm....
but now,,i'm trying to give myself a chance to be happy with my own choice,,
as i always pray to Him, and now i guess i already get the answer,,
thank you Allah,,plz guide me Allah..
i like a baby without You by my side...
i dun care wht people wanna say on what i've decide,
i made the choice here,okay?? not you,not them,not anyone...ME..
so i can't have it both ways when its too complicated for me to look..
it's okay if i'm being a jerk,,
there's just no way around.........

and now, i am appreciating someone in my life..
after i put him aside from my heart..
i never open my heart for him..
but he still love me sincerely without hoping i will accept him..it's enough for him if i am friend of him..
he's totally a good man..
never hurt me,,
if before i was thinking that be in silence, ignore everything..will solve my confusion & problems..
but with him, i learned that silence just gonna make you hanging, hanging and hanging..
you should face it..
than you can let go the old bond and reach the new one.....