in any way I humiliated you??

You are so gentle, asking for forgiveness, explain the truth.. Even I'm not forgive you yet or accept your explanation, but then I know I will forgive you. It's just about time coz I'm so mad when you playing around my feeling. 

but what happen just now?? Ouchh, so hurts.

you said I humiliated you by telling our story to others, I just meant to gain you & your friends some respect. All this while, whatever you said, I just shut up,  I always hold on that whatever you said, you didn't mean to hurt me. But the game, is too much for me. I'm not a doll, I have feeling. I hope someday you will feel what I am feeling rite now..or maybe you'll be feeling nothing coz you don't have that sensitivity. You just do whatever you wanna do. You just said whatever you like without thinking others. Nobody can say NO to you. 

Satisfy yourself friend. I always pray for you for you to see what you are doing right now. I just don't aspect you did this to me. 

Thanks for all your kindness all this while, Thanks for always concern about me, I will never forget that. Thanks for all the moment we share together. I still don't understand why all this happen to us. May Allah bless you dear friend. Maybe this is really the end of chapter of us.

If you did this because you shame for what I've been post and make others know about our special friendship, what can I say. Hope something worthwhile you just got by playing someone's heart.

:: LOVE YOU FRIEND ::

 

new week begin..arrgghhh!!

I hate MON-TUE-WED-THU-FRI

what can I say, my mood in study lost since I got here (UTeM)

try to get back but always failed

have some task delayed, need to catch up.

 

 

this week I have test

damn!! test is killing me!!

 

 

you know what help me so much when I got all this pressure??

EAT. FOOD. That's why I become chubby day by day.

 

 

try to diet?? as usual, always failed.

why?? tension everyday

why?? because I don't wanna be here,HAHA!!

 

Alhamdulillah,,

:: Alhamdulillah, I'm full ::

thanks Asyraf dear.

We went to Mydin Food Court

 I had my Nasi Campur at Masakan Ala Kampung with Teh-O Ais

He had Nasi Ayam Blackpepper with Air Kepala

(^_^)

lapar Nasi Campur

Assalamualaikum semua

how are you today? Hope korang semua sihat2 saja k

my dear Asyraf, hope your cough&flu is better today

just get up at 12pm,haha

and now, I AM SO HUNGRY

and terasa sgt nk makan Nasi Campur

lauk pauk yg bnyak + sayur kobis + sambal belacan + telur asin

yummy!!!! is tyme for LUNCH..with him.

:: TATA TITI TUTU ::

:: I N T R O D U C I N G ::

Assalamualaikum guys

before this I x pernah INTRODUCE u all dgn insan2 yg close dgn I instead of my beloved family & my dear Asyraf. So this entry dedicated to them which make my life complete & awesome. Without them, I wouldn't be where I'm standing now.

:: Lady 1 ::

 We Need Each Other

Her name Nor Farahana binti Mat Jali

I called her with 'Ana', 'Larlink', 'Girl' or 'Babe' (keep changing all the times)

She is friends of mine since we at 'sekolah teknik'

we are 'awek Terengganu', hehe

what can I describe about her??

NOISE TALKATIVE BRAVE STRONG HEART GORGEOUS SKINNY LOYAL

we separated after SPM, both of us further our study

she went to UTeM and I went to PSAS

then we meet after a long time

now, both of us do bachelor at the same place, UTeM

sometimes we hang out together & share our problems

I just wanna say, I LOVE HER so much.

:: Lady 2 ::

BEING STRONG FOR EACH OTHER

Her name Nurul Farhana binti Kamarul Rashid

fuhh, pnjang kn nama makcik ni?? hehe

I called her with 'Ana' something joking with her by 'Mak' or 'Makcik' sbb kuat membebel,hahaha..just kidding dear..

she stay at Kg.Soeharto with her family

what can I describe about her??

SHY MATURED ACTIVE LOVING MANJA STRONG HEART LOYAL

we meet when I studied at PSAS Behrang, Perak.

she one of my classmate, we not so close in 1st year there

we start get closed in 2nd year & we've been through so much thing together

last year at PSAS, we become housemate coz we are staying at the same rent house with Nurul Afiqah & Nur Wahidah, miss them damn much!!

we graduated together!!!

she's good at playing netball..we share that but I'm not good like her.

now both of us study at UTeM in same course a.k.a not-our-passion-course

but it's okay, we keep being strong for each other

I just wanna say, we just meant to be a bestfriend I LOVE YOU

:: Lady 3 ::

Her nama is Jazira binti Jamil Din

I called her with 'Jaz' or 'Jajigha'

she's from Kulim,Kedah and we know each other at UTeM but officially be close when she becomes my roomate last year until now..

hurm..what can I describe about her??

GORGEOUS CUN NOISE MANJA LOKLAQ LOVING FUN

we in the same course, BITC.

she's younger than me and sgt2 manja, adik I pun x manja mcm dia taw,

hehehe just kidding dear. Always make noise in our room.

guess what?? she have a weakness which is for me so funny.

should I tell you guys?? should I tell them Jaz??hihi

okay2, I'm not gonna tell them, kesian kt u klau semua org serang u dgn ttuuuttt plak nt,hahahha. Get over it dear, there's nothing about 'it' you afraid of. It just a ttuuuutt, it cannot harm you at any way,,haha

next semester we not going be a roomate anymore,

I'm gonna miss you Jajigha..

:: Lady 4 ::

Her name is Wan Nur Atiqah bin Wan Husin

I called her with 'Ika' or 'Nurika'

she's from Tanah Merah, Kelantan'. I never knew her before until she becomes my roomate. My first impression when I look at her, 'We will be a good sisters'.

and when I know she's from Kelantan, I can't believe. She's so different from my other Kelantan's friends, totally different.

what can I describe about her??

SOFT GENTLE POLITE MANJA SHY LOVING LOYAL PATIENCE 

I just wanna say, I always pray for your happiness.

Its something about you that I cannot express. Your heart is special. May Allah bless you dear & Be happy always dear. Live your life.

This four ladies meant so much for me. Each of them have different life story & also love story. This life isn't just about having fun, study, BF-GF, being teenage, popular, or anything else..but.. How we appreciate this life that given by our creator, Allah. Know yourself before you judge others & appreciate you friends. Stop using each other. SAY NO TO FAKE FRIENDSHIP.

:: AinJannah PRECIOUS Palace ::

:: now i know ::

now I know who I am to you, just a place for you to play around. All this while, I'm so worried about you, I don't want to be a reason for you to be upset. I wish I could fine someone for you to make you forget about me.. Being your friend meant so much for me. As long as I know you not hate me or not avoiding me, It's enough. We are good friends before, we so close. We shared everything about this life. Even this life is too dark, too big and too much but when its comes to you, you make it so cool & easy. That's what I know about you. People love being friends with you, so do I.

but today, something change. I couldn't bear what you have done to me. Even you said don't take it serious, maybe you don't realize what you have done. You just make fun of my feeling towards you. I don't get it. Why you and your friends do that to me. What you guys what to prove?? How care am I to you?? How hurt am I when all this happen?? or what?? You don't need to do all such thing, just ask me if you wanna know. YES! I care about you. YES! I'm hurt when you said this is just a game.. and YES! I am crying. Shame on you and your friends for doing this to me. I always respect you, I can't accept this.

 last but not least, I just wanna say Thanks to you for being my friends.

and Thanks for let me know who I am to you now.

Hope you having fun with the game.

and my advice, don't play this game for someone you really love one day,

even for you,this game is the way you want to know the feeling of that girl.

it just so unacceptable.

:: at least i admit it ::

so much thing happen  with or without my desire

keep doing the right thing sometimes wrong

failed, failed & failed again

i know this would come

its just about time & seems its already the time

not happy & not sad - neutral

but still, reality is reality

you can dreamed but not forever

i don't understand, confuse

the faith that I hold seems get lose from my hand

where should I hold now? try to reach 

but there's nothing to reach except..be still

can I keep be still?? of course I can't..

things will change

people will change too

and for sure, I should do something..

mistake is not something u can choose

either u want it or not

its just happen, without any warn

instead of being frustrated,

also should have strength there

at least I admit it

plz don't judge me for what I've done

see how I try to fix it even I always find failure.

:: MY ACTIVITY ::

:: February 17 ::

This pic was snap at FTMK lobby before all of us went to Kuala Lumpur for PSM Visit at Seri Kembangan. We accompanied by Dr Zul Azri and Mrs. Zaheera. 

Visit Location: Signtech Malaysia & CyberSecurity Malaysia
pic: credit to Mohd Aliff

:: at CyberSecurity MALAYSIA after the visit ::

:: with my dear BFF Ana Rashid ::

:: February 18 ::

have some fun playing bowling with my Asyraf and my BFF, Epi. Guess what, I'm so addicted to bowling now, haha. Will improve the skill,haha.
 

:: February 19 ::

:: Hunger of Secret Recipe cheese cake, Indulgence Chocolate is the best!! ::

:: February 20 ::

Went to Tasik Ayer Keroh with my Asyraf and friends; Amirul Asyraf & Shafik. My dear roomate, Nurika & her BF joined this too.

 All this activities really2 help me in built up my strength. Everyone can have friend, not just a friend but many friends. But having a friend is not just u have it or own it but how u be friend and how u being a friend to your friend. 


You know how to be truth with ur BF, then why u cannot be truth with ur friends too?? Its just the same feeling..feeling towards someone you love & care. Don't think negative of ur friends, don't judge by yourself. Some of teenage now, too arrogant, too proud of him/herself. Hey guys, you cannot reach what you already reached now without your friends.


:: THINK ABOUT IT ::


:: APPRECIATE YOUR FRIEND ::

when we together

it's been a long.....

Assalamualaikum bloggers..how are you guys??

damn I miss you all & this palace, wish you all doing fine with your wonderful life & beloved person. Full your life with love coz that will bring you towards happiness BUT still, don't be too desperate to have one, let the love comes naturally, for the pure & the real one,hehe..

So whatsup guys?? It's 38 days in 2011,how is it going??

good? not good? happy? not happy? happening? terrible? fun? hard? challenging? easy? give up? excited? tired? pissed off? crazy? popular? in love? confuse? broken? bored? inspiration? or too much to choose one of these?? hehe..but I'm sure, one of them must be correct to describe what is happening to your life, so do I..hehe. It's been a long time I didn't shout out at this palace of mine, and a lot of reason why I didn't do it, I'm sure you guys don't want to hear it.. it's a lottt!! sometimes I feel like I should juz close down this palace, should I?? oh No No No.. I cannot live without you my Precious Palace.

OMG!! I have something that always bothering me since new year. You guys wanna know what it is?? Aaarrgghhh, I'M FAT!! I'M CHUBBY!! I really don't like this but I am lazy to exercise so serve my right,hahaha!! wanna see how chubby my cheek?? hahaha.. Enjoy the show!!

wahh3..seems you guys having fun laughing at me ehh? 

hahaha, I don't mind coz I am Chubby rite??

when I happy : EAT

when I sad : EAT

when I tired : EAT

when I stress : EAT

when I excited : EAT

when I hungry,of coz : EAT

when I'm in trouble : EAT

EAT, EAT & EAT & EAT AGAIN..HAHA!!

okay2,,end of story about messy ME.

now let's share about current issue..first of all is about Malaysian student whose at Egypt. Subhanallah, I can't imagine if I was there facing all those chaos. So scary. Even I'm not sure about the whole story what is going on there but let's pray for their safety. Not just keep blaming others. I just don't understand what is happening to Malaysian, keep blaming rather than be united to help each other. Hello?? this world is not just about 'politic', we need to be real & at the same time do not forget out creator. To all Muslim, let's pray Solat Hajat, ask for the best for them, InsyaAllah.

second thing is..hoho, 'Goodbye' from Liverpool fans to Fernando Torres who already move on to his new team, Chelsea. Even though I like you so much my dear Torres but I'm not gonna break my loyalty to Liverpool like you,haha!

and Welcome to Liverpool for Andy Carroll & Luis Suarez. GO LIV!! YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE!!

Okay guys, see you on next post. Until then, keep visiting & blogwalking here. I'll be on my way to Malacca tonight. Campus Life,HOHOHO. My dear Asyraf, wait for Keropok Lekor Terengganu  special for you,hehe. Ooopss, before I end this, I would like to say, 'Appreciate someone who always be there for you before you lose them, Don't be too selfish & egoist'. Think about it.

I wanna share some video here,enjoy guys!!

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