heavy one

day by day..i see every reason for anything happen to my life
there is a good one and also bad..honestly, it's getting harder everyday..unlucky me
nobody knows or see our hardship,they just know how to 'comment' on it
without considering..or thinking the good one..other than the bad one
can they just be more concern?? a little mybe?? not much..
word is just a word until you made it...or meant it..or prove it
so, its easy to say it instead of doing it
thought I'm getting better and better after trying hard to face it
but..I'm wrong,it just not gonna happen like I wish..unlucky me,again
hoping is just not enough,then I work for it but I mess everything..
dun know wht else I should do
not just messing with study but....with him too
hey guys,,remember?? I am cruel !!! so of course I will spoiled everything
he is the best thing ever been mine
all the dreams he created for me
all the memories he want me to be part of it
all the loves he want to share with me
he owns the big hearts that will give me the happiness I wanted all this while
sometimes I feel likes this life is unfair & sometimes I feel I deserve it
its not a choices but...
whom I should be & who I am..

writer says: you must stick on what you've decide dear..
phua chu kang says: dont play play
simon says: blew off!!
okay!! enough with the heavy...arrghhh!!!