I'm standing here.......

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm not desprate for changing

just starving for the truth...mybe..

letting go of all I've held onto

I'm living for the only thing I know

I'm running...and..

quite not sure where to go

just hanging....

there's nothing else to lose...

there's nothing else to find...

I've got nothing else to say

anymore...

Yes, I'm all wrong, you're right

it's all the same with you

hey, just get out

my heart bleeds enough

don't kill me this way

I'm begging...

now..there's been a change in me

a kind of moving on

though what I used to be

for now I realize

that good can come from bad

and for now, I love the world I see

no change of heart a change in me

I slowly understood

my perfect world out there

mybe a truer life begin

mybe...

should give it a try..

shared by someone....

Tika ini hatiku menangis lagi
dari celahan luka-luka
airmataku mengalir deras
tanpa henti....
tidak dapat ku tahan
sakitnya peritnya pedihnya
biarlah reda sendiri

Tika ini aku sedari
kealpaanku
kebodohanku
kesilapanku
walau ku punya sijil tinggi
hakikatnya aku bodoh
dalam dunia sebenar
aku ikut nafsu yang palsu
iblis seteruku
akhirnya aku merana lagi

Tika ini ku mohon padaMu Allah
pencipta dan pemilikku
ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku
ku sedari atau tidak
buangkan syirik kibir riak dan penyakit hati
maafkanlah
kebodohanku
kezalimanku
keingkaranku
kerna mencari cinta bahagia dan kekasih
dari selainMu

Tika ini aku bersumpah
dengan namaMu yang suci
tidak akan kuberi
hatiku pada sesiapa lagi
tidak akan aku cari bahagia di dunia ini
cintaku kini hanya padaMu
hatiku ini hanya untukMu
ku nanti bahagia hanya dariMu
Kau jadikanlah hatiku
hanya cinta padaMu
dan pada orang-orang yang Kau cintai
dan cinta pada amal
yang mendekatkan aku padaMu

Tika ini aku mohon pada pemilikku
jika aku melanggar sumpah dan janjiku ini
ambillah nyawaku
tamatkan riwayatku
biarlah aku mati
dari hidup sebagai
penipu
pendosa
pensyirik
penzalim
kerna mencari cinta dan bahagia
pada selainMu
yang tidak bisa berbuat apa-apa

wahai Allah yang menyayangiku
terimalah aku sebagai kekasihMu
agar tidak aku tercari-cari lagi
agar hatiku tenang dalam kasihMu
agar aku bahagia dalam pelukanMu
agar aku tidak menangis lagi
bilakah saat indah ini terjadi?
bila mana Kau terima aku sebagai kekasih hakiki....

mySTORY

Assalamualaikum smue...we meet again,,,actually bnyk sgt peristiwa & story2 yg nak d share tp sbb dh terlalu byk, ingat2 lupa la plak kot,,hehe..but i'll try to share as much as i can..oritee....so..after 10 days at Melaka starting my new semester @UTeM, it was so great and i'm so happy...meet up some new friends & collegues, get involved in some activities...really fun & amazing moment~~~I thank to Allah for this oppoturnity and so greatful for giving me a chance to feel all this happiness, Alhamdulillah..Allahuakbar.

new semester was fun, all was in place very well so far..timetable not so pack, all the registered subject was scheduled nicely..just one lab have a clash with other lecture but insyaAllah, all be settled soon. Bnyak sgt perkara2 yg mbuatkan aku gembira skrg tp sbg insan biasa, aku tak nak terlalu alpa..disebalik kesenangan yg d rsai pasti akan di uji,so sentiasa la ingat akan Dia yg Maha Esa..i'm happy having a great friends around me tht gives me advice, support and show me something tht i never seen before, smoga Allah mbalas jasa & kebaikan kalian dgn rahmatNya..amin..

i have a feeling tht i'm a different person now..i don't know if it was only my fake feeling or the truth but the more important, i comfort with it..i try to make this life enjoyable without forgeting Allah..like someone ever said 'whatever life given by God, enjoy it'...so guys, if you stress, manage your stress wisely, keep jumping, do something tht can spice up yourself..it's your choice..come on!!!

my 1st activity this semester @UTeM, ''KeReX Junior (Panti-Arong)'' aka my 1st outdoor program since school, totally amazing & superb experience!! i don't have a right words to describe this experience but it's was really2 enjoyable & best ever!! 16th of July off to Kota Tinggi for 1st climbing trip, Gunung Panti...it was extreme for me but still fun...love it!! cabaran yg we all face up bcoz it was raining so most of the track was slippery..we all climbing none stop,fuhh...i'm not sure how much the height but its quite tough for 1st timer like me,huhu,,,,i'm glad having the seniors tht so supportive & tak kedekut for sharing their experience..when i reach up the top of the Gunung Panti, Subhanallah..so beautiful..besarnya ciptaan Tuhan..i'm so lucky be the one who seen this beautiful Allah creations.

after the climb, we all off to Mersing to get prepared for our 2nd climbing trip at the next day..that night we all bermalam kt tepi pntai...Pantai Air Papan, Mersing..so nice & completed the feelings of camping. tht's why i said,,,it was the best experience ever for me, i'll never forget it!! so...the next day, early in the morning, after breakfast, we all get prepared to our 2nd climbing trip to Gunung Arong, Mersing..this one is not high like Gunung Panti, but the challenge is 'raining....' again..& also climbing none stop,,fuhh!! but still it was fun...really fun..major fun!!!! the best part is, when we reach down, it's a beach!! beautiful beach!! i wish you all guys be there with me to see the views...rasa mcm xnak balik pun ada tyme tu..air pantai yg cantik, actually to reach the place we all should gathered before get back to Melaka, we need to cross the beach..like a small river,,can you imagine guys, it was so fun to cross it,tyme tu rasa mcm xnk kluar dr air tu..best sgt2..terbaekk!! the best & the best ever!!!

after all was gathered, we off to Melaka to get back to UTeM..we all totally having fun there..its such a great moment, great experience, great memory tht i will never forget,.& sharing this moment with my younger sis, Mira & my BFF, Farhana, it such a meaningful to me...thanks Allah for giving me this oppoturnity..Alhamdulillah~~~~

the best ever!!

long time no see....it was totally great weekend for me..expedition to Gunung Panti & Arong with KereX Junior Club....was so exciting!!! the best experience ever in my life..i learned hardship, mentally & physically..i'll story u guys later ok, i will upload pic soon...juz wait for my next post!! miz u allSSS!!!

snap2 travel_from TRGN to MALACCA

Riyaz Heritage

pic2 ni di snap dr phone SE aku..me, my sis, my aunty & my cousin..
we all pose2 dlu sblum wedding photography aunty aku yg kawen hr tu utk pic2 outdoor plak..
so me, my sis, my aunty & my cousin is the 'dayang2' of the day..
melaram sakan n pose melebihkn pengantin yg nk photoshoot..hahaha!!
so...here we are....

why????

Sometimes I can be so kind with other person, sometimes I can be cruel too...like someone said it to me. When I being so kind, so understanding, then at last I'm the one will hurt. Ya Allah kenapa semua ni selalu terjadi padaku?? Orang kata, belajar dari kesilapan..but it still happen..I just don't know what should I do anymore!!! Sedih sgt bila org kata saya ni kejam,,,can u guys understand what I'm feeling right now?? Takpe la...saya terima je la apa orang nak kata, sesungguhnya yg baik tu datang dari Allah, yg buruk tu datang dari kesilapan dan kekhilafan saya sendiri..

GER vs ESP

Assalamualaikum smue...dh lme x post smthing kt blog ni kn..xbzi pun,tp xda mood..bnyak sgt perkara mganggu fikiran ni,huhu..pe la nasib bdn..masalah jer. Tp xpe la, aku ikhlas, ujian&dugaan tu tndanya Allah sygkn kita...so be happy ok!! Congrats to Netherlands coz berjaya kalahkn Uruguay..kemenangan yg sudah d jangka...bg aku la...hehe. So mlm ni tggu giliran Germany lwn Spain plak..bg aku match kali ni memg sengit..sama2 kuat & sama2 licik..tp ikutkn performance, Germany memg mpunyai corak permainan yg style,passing memg kemas..tp Spain pun xkurang hebatnye...so aku harap Spain bermain dgn bijak mlm ni utk mnentang barisan2 muda Germany dan sekaligus menewaskn Germany..hope so..tp kalau Germany menang, xda pe yg ptut d pertikaikn coz dua2 layak utk menempah tempat d Final, so guys, will see..

p/s: hope esk ofis ftmk akan kol aku utk setelkn masalah status aku kt SMP,risau sgt takut xdpt hostel,huhu..

great game

congrats to Germany, great game.memg style ah player Germany maen..& big congrats to SPAIN too!!! best game ever!! so skrg ni Germany akan jumpa Spain kt Semi Final...waaaa!!! saya takut la..Germany & Spain sama2 kuat, sama2 terer..& x dinafikan player Germany ada kelebihan tersendiri..laju..licik & teamwork..Spain plak penuh dgn strategi & surprises..hope Spain dpt kalahkan Germany!! bashaa!!

game

Assalamualaikum..hye guys,,apa khbar smue??hrp2 smuanya sihat2 blake xmcm saya,xtahan cuaca pns sgt, asyik pening jeq,,oopppss,mengeluh plak..astagfirullahalazim. Klau hujan itu rahmat, panas juga satu rahmat..smuenya nikmat Allah & sbg hambanya yg mensyukuri nikmatNya, kita xptut merungut..ingat taw!! mengingatkn sesama saudara juga mengingatkn diri saya sendiri..insyaAllah kita smue d bwh lindungan rahmatNya..amin...(hehehe,cuci hati sket) ^__^

hmm..lepas kekalahan RF kt Wimbledon hr tu, rasa terubat dgn kemenangan Netherlands@Holand@Dutch@Oranje@Belanda..(bnyk btul nma team ni). Match tu holand menentang 'the brazilian'..huhu..ntah la, dr dlu kot memg aku memg x pernah support team 'berlagak' ni..Ronaldinho ker..Robinho ker...Ronaldo ker..Rivaldo ker..apa2lah lg,aku memg 'kureeenggg' sket ah nk sokong team yg berlagak2 ni..tp x dinafikan, diorg memg player yg baik dan mampu memberi saingan yg kuat kpd team2 yg lain..(tp kn..ada sorg mamat tu,encem..hehe..Kaka)pe2pun..Holand bkn calang2 team,memg aku hepi gler.hepi sgt..apa lg...hepi tahap dewa..haha...bila Holand dpt tewaskn Brazil. Game smlm memg agk kasar & bnyk kemarahan tercetus tp smue tu dh adat ah..bila dh smpai quater final ni smue nk memg,memg suasana dan emosi tu agak tegang antara kedua2 team. Wesley Sneijder memg terbaek!!(kpla dia yg botak tu kot yg bwk tuah,hahaa)apapun,thanx jgk utk Felipe Melo coz leh d katakn gol sendiri ah,,hehe & last but not least, even Felipo Melo kena red card sekaligus mbuatkn Brazil tinggal 10 org tp itu bukan alasan @ sebab utk mempertikaikan kemenanagan Holand yg memg hebat!! oh ya,lupe plak, satu lg team favorite aku, SPAIN!! Congrats coz kalahkan team Portugal tu..(team yg berlagak jgk,apa ntah ada kt Cristiano Ronaldo tuh,haha)

move to the next game, tonight, ARGENTINA vs GERMANY!! dua2 team yg sama kuat, sama2 mmpunyai kekuatan tersendiri & juga kelemahan masing2..rekod2 game Argentina utk FIFA 2010 ni amat baik coz smue menang,xda yg kalah..manakalah rekod Germany plak x sebaik Argentina..tp dlm game ni,apa2pun blh jd kn?? so...will see.. =)) nk thu pe pilihan saya?? hahaha..of coz la I sokong Argentina!! c'mon Argentina!! beat the German's!!

finish the exciting comment,now..the sad one...huhuu..saya dh potong rmbut saya..waaaa...mak ckp, "potong je la akak, bukannya rmbut tu xpnjang balik..akak kn dh nk start semester baru..ringankan lah sket kepala tu.." hhuhuhu,,,sedihn cgt..sy sayang rmbut saya...!!! rmbut2,,cepat2 pnjang ea...huhuhu =(( Balik dr potong rmbut, mak bawak tmpt beli kuih..(kuih2 tradisional terengganu smue ada taw kt sni..nama tmpt tu, Gong Kapas..dekat dgn SMKA Khairiah) so utk pujuk&ceriakan hati saya yg sedih ni,,saya beli Bubur Ayam, Bekang Lemak & Tau Fu Fa..yummy!!! best!! cyg mak!! =)) hmm....cuti dh nk hbis..10/7 ni aku dh bertolak g Melaka..waa..sedih lg..xnak balik Melaka bleh x?? nk duk rumah jer..nk dekat ngn mak..huhu..mcm mn la agaknya hr tu nt, mesti aku nangis masa mak&abah hntar..


ok la guys...smpai sni dlu la ea..nt2 saya post lg..KEEP IN TOUCH!!
Thanks for Visiting!!

crashed out =((

hye guys,as promised,the match result!! Roger was crashed out at the quarter-final stage, beaten 6-4, 3-6, 6-1, 6-4 by the 12th-seeded Tomas Berdych of the Czech Republic in two hours 35 minutes..so sad..but..it's OK..FEDERER still the best ever,THE BEST TENNIS PLAYER EVER..mybe there no luck for today match..go Roger!! We always support U! Support Tennis!!