Akal dan Hati yang berbalah

Kadangkala aku tersangat rapuh dalam menempuhi perjalanan...
Kadangkala aku merasakan ingin pergi jauh dari tempat yang aku duduki tika ini...
Ke satu tempat yang tiada siapa mengenali diriku...
Ke satu tempat yg hanya ada ketenangan dari Allah sahaja...

Namun,itu bukanlah rancangan dari Allah untukku...
Dia mahu aku tetap kuat dan cekal dalam menempuhi perjalanan ini...
Allah...Allah...Allah... La Tahzan Robbuna Ma ana
La Tahzan Robbuna Ma ana
Tuhanku adalah Allah...
Guruku adalah Rasullullah...
Peganganku adalah Al-Quran...

Ya Allah
akal dan hati aku sering kali berbalah
akal memikirkan sesuatu yang hati aku tidak senang
hati  pula mahukan apa yang akal aku tidak mahu

Ya Allah
Kau Maha Mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui
Kau Maha Kuasa sedangkan aku tiada kuasa
Kau Maha Kaya sedangkan aku tidak punya apa-apa

Kepercayaan ku, pada takdir-Mu
tidak pernah berbelah bahagi
Engkau penentu segala, pasti !

berilah aku ketabahan dan kekuatan hati
di dalam setiap ujian dan dugaan yang Engkau utuskan buat ku
sesungguhnya aku insan lemah lagi hina
kasihanilah aku ya Allah...

being strong

I have no regrets in my life. I think that everything happens to you for a reason. The hard times that you go through build character, making you so much stronger person - Rita Mero

my fantasy

I spend a lot of my time on-line, listening to my fav music, reading  books

so just wanna let you all know

my writing highly influence and inspired by people around me, the lyrics of the songs I'm listening to & the books I'm reading..

'my fantasy'

Fear knocked at the door. Faith answered. No one was there.....

sometimes you gotta stop worrying and doubting or be scared of anything have not happen yet. All you need is some faith that things will work out. Maybe not how you planned, but how they were meant to be.

When you know your value, that's it.

you will see how much you are worth.

I'm not closing any books, I just turning the page to begin a new chapter.

I've try to close one before, but trust me, you will never succeed coz 'past' is also yours. There'd be no now if wasn't the past. So what I am doing right now is move along with it coz the past makes the better me today.

I am so grateful having big-fat-heart people in my life who always try to lift me up day by day.

all I need to do is to keep remind myself to it

'past' never got very far, I'm putting some defences, walls up

to make sure I guarded my heart 

and I ever promised I wouldn't do this

until I knew it was right for me

but....

my fantasy

I knew you noticed that I lose my focus, coz...

I've never felt nothing like this before

you're making me so open up, no point even trying to fight this

It kinda feels like it's love

is it ?

people said, if you about to love someone, you naturally expect a little care from them.

huhu, is it true? well, I guess I should take the chances, in fact, takes a loooottttt fo them..hehe

be brave to step up !

Bcoz honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are, you learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel, always. Be you and be OK with it.

Everyday Allah showed me one by one, something I couldn't understand before, but I can understand now. How Amazing HIS planning and HIS will. Beyond what I ever thought before.

I am writing and sharing this, hoping everyone will stay strong even how big or how serious your state of life now, don't ever give up. Allah never ask you to start thinking and depressing your brain thinking of the solution of your problem, Allah only ask you to calm down, be patience and tell Him all your hardship, He just wanna hear you asking from Him. He definitely will help you.

problems are like washing machines, they twist, they spin, they knock us around..but in the end, we come out cleaner, brighter and better than before...InsyaAllah.

love,

A.J 

and the end of the day (akhirnya)....

"Akhirnya...

aku cuma mahu jadi orang biasa

masak makanan kegemaran kita

sterika baju kau sebelum pergi kerja

mandi dan susukan cinta hati kita

tidur beralas lengan kamu sampai bila-bila"

Namun...

ada perkara yang ingin kita buang jauh-jauh

kita lemparkan ke hujung dunia

kita hapuskan dari minda dan ingatan

bukan kerana kita membenci

tetapi kerana menyedari jika kita mengingatinya

hanya membuat kita terikat kepada sebuah kesedihan jika terus menyimpannya

hanya membuat kita terkaku pada sebuah angan-angan

bukan membenci, bukan berputus asa

cuma sedar dan faham

ada sesetengah perkara

memang bukan hak kita

menjauhi bukanlah bermakna membenci

cuma untuk mengelakkan hati dari terus terguris dan disakiti

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