against me

everything...everyone was against me. Feel so terrible right now, stuck in a room doing nothing. Kind of interrupting someone's happy life. You are so annoying Ain.. You are so in trouble. Why I messing up with everything?? I just don't wanna be hypocrite person.. I don't deserve him. I just want my lonely life back..even it's not happy but at least I'm not breaking up others heart. I'm so tired thinking out of others, it's time to be selfish..isn't it guys?? I wish I could fix everything but....mybe it's too late now.. I just wanna say here..someone who ever walking in my shoes, that person will understand my situation now..feel so relieve when we talking & sharing with someone who really understand us instead of pushing me hardly.. I can't be good to everyone around me... I'm sorry...........